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maybe. mildly so.
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I must have kept my hand on that switch a good thirty seconds before I flipped it. If I had it to do over again, I'd have waited a few moments more. I would pay good money for every instant in my life without that image in it.

and reading that i paused and shut the book and for a moment i just couldn't continue. like the protagonist i didn't want to see it either. yes, i knew it was coming-- wasn't like i'd never read this before. how in the world does someone who wrote the inexplicably stifling double fault come up with something as hauntingly, existentially stark as we need to talk about kevin?
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the week ahead feels very empty. my thursday classes have ended, i'm not involved in dancetitude (damnit i really should have tried to push my departure dates) and there's no busking practice on tuesday (yuko's bday!!), which means i effectively only have dance 4 days out of 7 till sunday. sigh. just as well i have a load at work to deal with and it's bloody irritating.

woke up this morning, stared at the red marks (in the now-faded silhouette of an elongated ET) all over my arm from when the airbag exploded in my face on saturday and realised exactly how bloody lucky i was. i don't imagine i can dance with a broken arm or leg or neck, and THAT would have been unspeakably-- damning. also realised how lucky i am in having my gloomy-weather friend who keeps messaging me to find out if i'm alright. :):)

considering that on saturday my sister had to forcibly restrain me from trying to correct the blatantly, horribly painful grammar mistakes in my insurance report (i tried anyway, and the insurance guy gave me a Look), these stick-em-up offerings of dylan meconis would probably be a godsend of sorts.


i can't sleep. but instead of reading my cases for work i am re-cracking my mildewed volume of the time-traveller's wife.



what. it's still about matrimony, right.


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