green tea popcorn which i swear is evil incarnate. i finished the whole packet :( along with incidental help from a few grazers ranging from siqi and robo, who loved it, to lily lee, who did not mind it, to teri and nette and andrew, who thought it was hellbane. at least it was happy food that got me through lcs. GARGH LCS BURN BURN BURN. ruining perfectly good days with complete dourness. i snapped at yz and snarled at luke before i managed to shut myself up bleh.
still, by dint of incredible patience and a lot of effort some people enjoy complete immunity from my moods :D. yes, this goes out to miss "no... they're super square!!" and miss having-an-exam-everyday. <3
went for winnie's open studio on monday :):) very very happifying. how in the world did i stay out of dance classes for weeks? before monday the last time i'd danced was seriously blast class. so long ago (the cc where i was supposed to take classes catching on fire 30 mins before class started did not help either. i tell you murphy's law views me as its personal pet)! the horror. karen was complaining that she was out of form but hurhur michelle and i psycho-motored from warmup to the very end. but it was fun nevertheless AHHH addicted. and talk about coincidences it was only after the class ended and i was facebooking that night that i realised that one of the people there had been my hc pe teacher. HAHA. i rmb her alright cos she was pretty much the first female i knew who could breakdance and she tried to teach us six-step et. al. for pe elective but obviously pretty much everyone failed, majorly. not the most coordinated bunch.
lily lee asked me after pub law tut today "how was dance?" and then burst out laughing because she said my eyes lit up immediately. :D
pub law tut was insane lost as alice as always. i watched in disbelief as a certain someone fielded question after question with insanely in-depth answers while watching soccer on his laptop. i mean-- seriously. life is not fair. where are my brains??? and aren't guys supposed to not be able to multi-task?!
sometimes i really have to wonder what the heck i'm doing in this course man. i appealed to overload my courseload at uppsala so that i can do a lit module hurhur. DESPERATE to do 18th century brit lit, but that course is 10 credits and i think i can only overload by 7.5 credits, which leaves me with effectively shakespeare. HAIZ. eisen's advice was to go for 18th century, which i really do want-- charlotte bronte's villette, for crying out loud!-- but credits credits credits :( means i can't take swedish, either. AH burnnnnnn. i shall conveniently omit telling my parents that they're paying exorbitant amounts so their daughter can s/u all her law modules in favour of literature and dance (hopefully!).
wondering, too, if i should try applying to sph to intern this break. i really do miss the newsroom an awful lot, and sometimes i think that, as emotionally exhausting as the whole shindig was, it had a lot of meaning. meaning that is not always apparent in law. (maybe not even apparent-- actual. HURHUR public law natural justice). and imminent mental breakdowns/burn outs or not if i'd done communications and journalism, at least i'd have had a stand, an opinion, a firm knowledge of what i felt about everything instead of the hazy gray areas in everything i see now. and i'd be doing something i truly loved instead of something i feel somewhat ambivalent about.
but then i wouldn't be in nus, i wouldn't have joined blast or gotten to know all the wonderful wonderful people there, and i wouldn';t be going into the same profession as my nearest and dearest bestest of best friends, and i would never get to hang out with my fellow green-tea-lover (who alternates between attempting to seduce me or to entice jin away from me), or the "centaur of attention", or-- oh no this will go forever.
so-- nah. not going to drop out haha.
and in any case i don't think sph would want me back. no reason to take on anyone who's not really considering joining them what.
SIGH I MISS THE NEWSROOM. eisen you don't know how lucky you are...!!