i have spent much of this afternoon looking for a version of a song i believe does not exist except in my head. haiz. and listening to endless perambulations and offside-takes of kenny g's version is killing me.

i want to join a race. or something.

plotting and dreaming of escapades when creature x returns. marmalade pantry! rollerblading (ok she doesn't like this. bummer.)! shopping! late nights up and out and hey hey we're both licensed. hoho.

just that i still can't drive properly. or park.

i'm going to practise parking somehow. maybe i'll clamber out of bed in the dead darkness of the night and drive away, leave all this to yesterday.
Posted at 7:18 PM

i have not been exercising. i haven't run or biked for a week! spent yesterday checking my shape and nike run timings and sighing my guts out wishing for a sub-one-hour record. i feel DISGUSTED and something in me needs to get the hell out there and pound the pavement.

but trial advo stares me in the face; company wags a finger admonishingly at me; property tut-tuts disapprovingly. best of all, clt does nothing-- it just is. the monolith that it is is bloody enough already, no other form of expression is needed.

monkey hell la.


incidentally jj's lord vader is AWESOME. :D i fell asleep listening to his album last night and woke at 2.08pm instead of the 9am i fully intended to. but 2 all nighters in a row-- well. what did i expect.


saturday was awesome! blast anniversary chalet at fairypoint haha it's REALLY called fairy point not ferry point. so snicker-worthy; but so pleasant too. it's like when i wanted (in my primary school days la) to go to a sec sch called diamond falls or sapphire emerald crystal secondary school or something. failing that i would settle for mayflower because it was at least a pretty name. hahaha. i remember this random sec sch naming competition we had i was so torn between emerald falls and sapphire something or another. i'm serious.

so, whoever christened the place fairy point-- good for you!

watched the suad video and thanked my lucky stars that the video bits for my items weren't the ones where i made humongous humongous mistakes. i still cringe thinking about them la. but for idil's item haha it was the one where my fan came out late and also where i bumped into ching cheng. eeeps. but the video overall was great-- or rather, the show was. video was CRAP hahaha but oh wells apparently we didn't have to pay for the videographer so--. i should be glad we have the video!

watched the juniors' items and the white hoods item and felt more than ever my own inadequacy. but it was so-- inspiring, too. so much to do, so far to go-- but every step is precious, every step is worth it. i'm very out of practice-- at the last class i could feel it-- i'd lost it, the knowledge of your own body, the ability to place energy in every step, or even to catch choreography. serves me right for not practising.

taboo marathon after that (so few people stayed over! :( BUT haha i know SOMEONE was particularly sad that SOMEONE ELSE didn't stay over. heeheehee). and charades and then pictionary. etc etc etc. damn funny la "casablanca" HAHA. or what esther would say to screw up a first date. or rebecca's earrings hahahah. or dismas' curse of the enormous winding penis or one flew over the cuckoo's nest hahaha. oh WAIT classic hahaha "offspring"! and "what do you do at as7? DANCE". or taufik's pwnage of 8 taboo cards. and alvan's "butterfly" HAHA.

chalet rawked :D and food at changi village thereafter. i'm so so so glad i went and stayed over to think i nearly gave it up for doing company tutorial. yech. ah well totally worth pulling a sunday all-nighter to finish the damn tut.

but yes, as you can see, i'm still happily bouncing about instead of getting to mug.

i want to run, damnit. i want to RUN. or DANCE. or BIKE. or BLADE. not sit here tapping away at my damnable laptop.


how dare you say it's nothing to me
baby you're the only light i ever saw
Posted at 4:06 PM

sitting in the middle of prop-- i mean comp, GARGH, i still can't tell them apart-- and mabel has just concussed next to me. hahaha.

10 minutes ago i was concussed.

we just had a rather exciting 10min break where we revisited our horrifying childhood memories of our diaryland blogs. hehehe. and our shared past. HAHAHAH.

i need to blog!!!

all from you
Posted at 4:47 PM