snatches of lyrics that shrouded my bed
dream-like you snared me in your haunting refrain
enfolded, i'm lost in your mystery again
all that i want is a way out to you
a slender slim chance that i may break through
connection, relation, instead of this cold--
your coolness and silence leaves my mind untold
and yes i am selfish for wanting to own
desiring to possess for myself alone
and yes i am scared for i know what you do
that magic and strangeness that seals me to you--
the timbre and soul in your depths of despair
your sides and aspects tht have led me to care
the way my eyes seek out your shadow and frame
the way your voice changed me-- i will do the same
for even as you give as only you can
thrilling my heart with the medley you wend
each time we connect in our dreams' lonely plane
you take away something of me yet again
and i'd like to think that the magic is true
that it works just as well for me as for you--
because of the beauty of your song in my head
as sad and as lovely as the workings of fate--
i hope you too wake with my song in your head
full of all of the secrets that we have not said
i pray that its rhythm and words will haunt you
the way your song does in all that i do
you always would have been a glorious chartbreaker
but for me, your song is my saddest heartbreaker
i flipped through an old notebook a few days back and found the above. itmakes little sense-- i think a sign of what i was feeling at that time, probably. hehe. it wasn't all that long ago either-- i was 17 when i wrote that.
then again, i'm almost 20. dear gods. *curses*